Girl on Girl
I've told you guys about my being-with-a-woman fantasies right? I think so? Anyways, I have them quite often and lately have been contemplating the whole thing just a little too closely for comfort.
I've even went so far as to get on Craigslist and check out the WFW Casual Encounters place.
Shit, I know right? Say HELLO to my little friend called the LINE that we don't cross. I've been stepping all too near and even found an add that if weren't for C. - I'd probably respond to.
Maybe it's all the stress of leaving my home and family and EVERYTHING to go and be solely with C. Maybe this is what people feel like when they're about to get married and have "cold feet."
I guess it's the realization that this summer was one last chance for me to sow some wild oats all nice and unsupervised. I went out a few times and had some fun this summer but I certainly didn't sow any oats, I could never cheat on C. I trust him 100%, even 2000 miles away and even though he worries, I believe he trusts me as well.
I think it's because I've come down to my last month here. Anything that I've always wanted to do, not just sex, needs to be done now or forever may it hold it's peace. I know that sounds dramatic but really, when I move my whole life will be changed and on a different track. The only reason I'll have to come back home is to visit family and friends, not to be running around doing STUFF. Stuff as in long wine tasting tours with work pals, camping up north where my family always does, sitting around on the beach for two days strait and doing jack shit just because I can, or you know, having sex with a woman.
Jaybird? (my BFF) don't worry ok, I don't want to get it on with you, I've never looked at you like that, this is more of a fantasy thing, and I don't fantasize about people I know. (Just to clear that up)
So here I am. I feel like once I move I'll...
